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Zoom Sacrificing our own plans because I know you want to spend time with your brothers. Ignoring all judgments and tweeting things which I know you would love me to. Supporting you in your interests even if it’s gonna mean our time is gonna get sacrificed. Always coming up with random ideas on places to go whenever we have the time, even though nothing has ever been mentioned because you’re always tired or feeling lazy. Changing my lifestyle and being a good girl now. Sacrificing sleep because I want to come up with a nice post on the dot.

I don’t complain because if all these would make you smile, I would do it with no qualms. But sometimes, I really need you to start looking into my heart, and find appreciation in there. And also to find that I really do appreciate everything that you’ve done for me. I’m sorry that I would be taking a long time to get over today because I just can’t take the fact that you chose to insult me today. It still hurts.

Sacrificing our own plans because I know you want to spend time with your brothers. Ignoring all judgments and tweeting things which I know you would love me to. Supporting you in your interests even if it’s gonna mean our time is gonna get sacrificed. Always coming up with random ideas on places to go whenever we have the time, even though nothing has ever been mentioned because you’re always tired or feeling lazy. Changing my lifestyle and being a good girl now. Sacrificing sleep because I want to come up with a nice post on the dot.

I don’t complain because if all these would make you smile, I would do it with no qualms. But sometimes, I really need you to start looking into my heart, and find appreciation in there. And also to find that I really do appreciate everything that you’ve done for me. I’m sorry that I would be taking a long time to get over today because I just can’t take the fact that you chose to insult me today. It still hurts.

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Although we’re quarrelling now, I still wanna wish us a happy 3rd month. Thanks for the insult.

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Zoom I want everyday to be like today, simple yet blissful. 

I want everyday to be like today, simple yet blissful. 

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blogsecret:

For once in my life, I want to be someone’s first choice. But I could never have it with you. I tried too hard to make it happen that I get hurt so easily in return. Truth is, I love you too much. 

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My heart hurts. What happened?

I remember how we used to have long talks on the phone late at night, both refusing to hang up even though we have got nothing to say anymore. You no don’t even say that you want to hear my voice anymore.

I remember how you used to be so proud of having me as a girlfriend, you went around introducing me to everyone, “Hello, this is my girlfriend”. You no longer do that. 

I remember how you would always hold my hand and tell me, “I am never letting go”. You no longer do that.

I remember how you would come all the way to my school just to pick me even if it means waiting for me for a long time. The last time you did this was before we even got together, I think?

I remember how we can be anywhere, how you would be willing to do anything, because so long we are together, we are fine with anything. Now you have so many buts and nos.

I remember how you would laugh so often when you’re with me. Now whenever you laugh, my heart will cry with joy because it was rare.

I remember how you were so happy when you just had me. I rarely make you happy.

I remember how you would always sing sweet phrases from songs to me. You no longer do that.

I remember how you would say sweet things to me, because you were so happy to have me. You no longer do that.

I remember how you would ask me about almost every tweet, asking me what is it or who does it refers to. You rarely do that. 

I remember how you would always motivate me when I feel so down or discouraged. You no longer do that.

I remember how you would pester me to ask me for my story because you want to listen. You no longer bother.

I remember how you would be so patient with me, no matter how hot-tempered I was. I was really never angry with you. You will just lose your patience at me and argue. 

I remember how you would take the effort to understand me better. You no longer do that.

I remember all the good times, and most of it happened when we were good friends. Now they’re just being kept as memories. You’re no longer proud of calling me your girlfriend, no longer wanting to shower me with tons of love, no longer your priority. Maybe I deserve this, for all the attitude I pushed to you, this is, perhaps, my karma. I have never taken you for granted, never. Every moment spent with you was greatly cherished and remembered. I have always felt that I expect too much from you, but then I realised that it was because you raised my expectations right from the beginning, you raised it to the level of cloud 9. All the good times we had, those are the expectations. But now? “Us” changed, we’re no longer who we were, we no longer do what we do, we no longer smile when we see each other. I guess you just don’t know that even though you’ve gotten me, you cannot stop showing me and assuring me that you still do love me. But I have no idea how to even start telling you all these, because I know that I must be an understanding girlfriend by giving you the space you need and the priorities you have. But most importantly, I am just afraid of the answer to the one last question I have for you, did your love for me fade?

I can’t take the answer.

05.08.12 0

We should stop doing everything together so often. That way, you’ll start appreciating how it feels to hold my hands, how it feels to touch my lips, and how it feels to connect with me. Because, I bet that you’ve forgotten everything.

05.06.12 0

With a guy like you, it’s never gonna be easy being depressed.

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No matter how emotionally weak I may be, no matter how many times I break down, I must never walk back into depression, never.

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Have never realised that I was such a burden to you.
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Have never realised that I was such a burden to you.
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Ambitions

To succeed the air-stewardess dream, to invest in houses, to buy a house for my mum to live comfortably, to adopt kids, to get married by the beach, to pay back to the society by helping out in third world countries, to be a good mum, and to show consistent love to my husband.

I’m quite glad that I’m actually determined of what my future would consist of. Even though I may seem to be a lazy someone who loves to idle around, I really am quite ambitious. Which, in my opinion, is a fairly good characteristic because it’s good to have goals in life. On the contrary, I would not be proud of myself until I’ve officially succeeded all my goals, an that would be prolly 60 years down the road.

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Shall not expect anymore. Maybe I’ll be happier this way.

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Maybe it’s true that you shouldn’t be expecting anything from anyone at all.
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I’m dying the further this thing goes.

You’re right outside, with every useless key you’ve tried. I’m seamlessly wrapped in secrets because that’s just the best way to hide it all away.

Let me say one more thing before these beautiful mistakes we’ve made run dry. Well I thought this would all blow by and everything would just turn out alright.

So say goodbye to days like these cause I’ll give it one more try and hope it all seems better in your eyes. Well maybe not this time

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Sunny LA (by Jenny Ong)
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